HCG - Check

IUI – pending

I took my HCG shot last night. Actually, my H gave me the shot. It actually stung when he put the needle in and then it stung while he injected the medicine in me as well. The previous two times I had to take ovadril it didn’t sting so this was new to me. I’m not sure if it’s because this time the pharmacist said to take it out of the fridge 30 minutes before hand and we did but previous times no one told me this so we took it out and injected it right then.

So, we are on track for our IUI tomorrow. Since my appointment time is so close to lunch time I’m going to take the rest of the afternoon off from work. I’m going to have lunch with my H and then go home and relax. Maybe take a little nap and let my body do it’s magic! I have also decided that I am not going to test out my trigger. I have a good idea about the time that it is normally takes to be out of my system. I also feel like it is the fuel that burns the fire for my POAS addiction. I also pray that I can at least hold out until 14dpiui to test. And anything I can do so as not to feel like I am going out of my freaking mind by taking several tests a day for two weeks and then turning the test every which way to make sure not even a shadow of a line is there I am going to try. Last IUI I seriously felt like I was BSC.

So here we go…tomorrow at 11:30 is the big moment!

Getting close

To our 3rd IUI. I had my first monitoring appointment on Friday and like every other cycle I wasn’t quite ready at that point. I had three on my left at 1.2, 1.2 and 1.5 and one on my right at 1.4. When the tech said I had three on my left I wanted to get up and dance since I’ve been having pep talks with my left ovary to work extra hard this time as I’m really depending on it! Although, I know that I can release an egg from my right side and it can travel down the left tube I didn’t want to put all of my “eggs” (haha) in that basket.

My Doctor wanted me to come back in today for another monitoring appointment. I had three on my left at 1.7, 1.7 and 1.8 and two on my right at 2.0 and 1.4. I am going to take ovadril tomorrow night for an IUI on Thursday (My previous two were both done on Thurdays as well!) I was actually given the option to take the shot tonight and then IUI on Wednesday with the on-call doctor at the Atlanta office but when I found out who the on-call doctor was I opted for Thursday. If you remember this post from earlier this year you know why I don’t want to work with this doctor again. I’m so excited to finally be here again. By the time the IUI gets here I will have more 5 mature follies ready to release. Wow.

So I will hear from my nurse this afternoon about what needs to happen next…if I don’t get an LH surge over the weekend most likely I will return for another ultrasound on Monday and hope to then take ovadril and set up the IUI for Wednesday.

I did have my HSG last Tuesday. Everything went fine. The NP who did the procedure said that everything looks good but the end of the tube did look a little dilated. So no issues with the left tube – woohoo!

Here we go again...Will the 3rd time be the charm?

Today is CD 4. Which means, yes folks, I’ve had two cycles in a row that were 29 days each. WTF? Did my body finally get the memo that 60+ days for a cycle just isn’t cool? This also means that even though I got a positive on an OPK (and for 4 more days) that our hail mary didn’t work. I actually gave up hope due to having so many positive OPKs. But that didn’t stop me from wasting 4 HPTs.

I’m also on day 2 of clomid. Oh how I have not missed Mr. Clomid. Yep, we’re going for our 3rd IUI. I also have an HSG scheduled for next Tuesday. Maybe the 3rd time will be the charm for us??

I have to say that I am scared. I think I’m more scared of this cycle working but ending bad then it actually not working at all. When I went to make the call on Tuesday that I was on CD 2 to my RE’s office I had a panic attack. I felt my chest get heavy and I couldn’t breathe. Then I started crying. I tried to call my H but he wasn’t answering. He called me back about an hour later and I asked him to make the call. Which he gratefully did. Just knowing that we’re headed down this road again and that the previous attempts didn’t work out is freaking me out. I don’t want any more emotional and physical pain. I’m not sure I can handle it again.

I just keep praying that we will pull through this. That on the other side of all of this there is life past infertility.

Furious

I am so livid. My cell phone doesn’t normally ring unless it is my parents or my husband. I don’t spend a lot of time on it but when a number I don’t know calls I usually don’t answer as 99% of the time it is a wrong number and they realize this once they get my voicemail. Well, last night while I was with my mom a local number called but I decided not to answer. They didn’t leave a voicemail so I assumed it was a wrong number. Well, I’m sitting at my desk this morning and the same number pops up. I decided this time to answer. And it was Northside Hospital where I had my surgery at demanding a payment right then and there. Well, it was only last week that I received my final total of what I owe. $600 out of $16,000. Not bad but right now we don’t have that money laying around and I had planned on calling them to set up a payment plan after we got back from our mini vacation this weekend. I questioned the lady why she was calling me and harassing me for a payment a week after I received the invoice and her response was that the amount was due and asked if I’d be paying by check or credit card. I explained to her neither at the moment. She then asked me when I’d be putting a check in the mail. I told her twice I was at work and would not talk about this further. I eventually had to hang up on her as she wouldn’t listen to a thing I was telling her.

I’m so mad that they are harassing me already! Out of all our medical bills the past year NO ONE and I mean NO ONE has called and harassed us for payment.

If they would have called and started the conversation out with explaining to me what I owe and asked me if I have $600 laying around and if not did I want to set-up a payment plan I would have talked to her but she was so rude with her approach I didn’t even want to talk to her.

I wanted to scream at the lady that you’re harassing me for money to pay for taking out my baby and taking my fallopian tube and to have respect for the people you’re calling. I’m not several months behind in paying them. I don’t have a non-payment history with this hospital. I never said I wouldn’t pay them. I also wanted to ask if it ever occurred to NSH that the first phone call should be a nice phone call and then if I haven’t paid after that you can then get more stern about asking for a payment?

I’ve always paid my bills. I’m never late. So this angers me to no end.

What a difference a day makes.

Wow. What a turn of events. I don’t want to jinx myself. Nor take away the excitement that I’ve felt since yesterday afternoon. But I had to share this with just more than my H and my doctor.

Since I went off of birth control in October of 2007 and we started actively TTC in January of 2008 I have not ovulated on my own without medical intervention…EXCEPT FOR THIS CYCLE!!! Holy crap. I decided on Sunday since I had a couple of sticks left for the digital OPK’s I would use it. Well, it didn’t detect a surge. I decided on my lunch break to oh what the heck and buy a pack from the store. I took the test around 1:00 and low and behold the test line popped up as dark as dark can be long before the control line. I started freaking out. I’ve never had this happen before. I sent my husband a text message telling him…It was the best afternoon I’ve had in a long time!!

My H also spoke to our doctor this afternoon. The gist of the conversation was about how we can’t afford IVF but our insurance will still pay for 4 more IUI’s. Our doctor explained that since I got the positive OPK we should get busy (HAHA J ) and hopefully in a couple of weeks they would see me for a beta. He then said if that didn’t work and I got my period to call the office to set up our next IUI cycle and an HSG to be positive my other tube is open. Awesome. I am so glad that he is open to doing more IUIs. I am also thankful he wants to do an HSG to be sure my other tube is free and clear.

For whatever reason it may be I decided before bed last night to take the last digital OPK that I had and it popped up a big ole’ smiley face J Wow. I think I even did a little dance.